Love,Pain and Destiny

Sitting in front of my PC at home, alone, on a chilly saturday evening, I put words to my pain. I don't know whether I am mature enough to understand love yet. But I do know that I have had many a tyrsts with love and it's siblings. Pain and Destiny.Someone once told me that a person can fall in love just once in his entire life. I rubbished this view, as I felt I was capable of loving more than once. Or maybe I was just hoping I could fall in love again. A few days back I found out, I have failed miserably.

Sometimes I felt that distances can reduce feelings. If things are not going to work out, maintain a distance, feelings will subside on their own. After all it was a tried and tested formula. But it didn't happen this time. The first rendezvous itself brought all those feelings to the surface. Failed love is like that wound which will never heal.

"You miss someone the most when she's sitting in front of you and you know you can't have her"

My office has two buildings, about 500m apart. Often while walking to the parking of the other building, it gets dark and lonely. I keep missing that someone who should have been walking besides me. Who should have been there to keep me company on cold nights. But when I reach my car, it's just me.

Manyatimes I feel helpless at the hands of destiny. Although we can make our own destinies, there are somethings, especially in matters of the heart that we can never change. So even if I know that these feelings will only bring me pain and misery, I can't help it. So what do I do? Go somewhere far far away and hope that I can forget my past. Hope that I can change my destiny.

Umrao Jaan

Before going to see Umrao Jaan I read a bad review on the net. I thought to myself, whenever I read a bad review, expectations go low and I invariably end up liking the movie. Little did I know that the movie would have such an effect on me that I would end up writing a review.







To put it in short, the movie before interval is boring, very boring...HYPER BORING!!!
If it weren’t for my patience and the Rs 130/- ticket I would have left by interval time. After the interval it has good pace and story moves on quite well. The movie is 2 hr long before interval. Add to that a string of songs, most of which fail to connect with you. Don’t blame Anu Malik, Javed Akhtar or Alka Yagnik. The songs have good quality of music, ghazal lovers will like them. “Salaam” is hummable. “Agle Janam”, the folk song, can rivet the viewers to their seats for a few moments. The lyrics, very well written by Javed Akhtar and beautifully sung by Alka Yagnik. Then why do the songs bore the viewers so much? Sheer numbers?
Not exactly. It’s Aishwarya! She isn’t Umrao Jaan. She ain't the Umrao we knew. She does all the dance steps well but without the “ada” or finesse. She looks stunnigly beautiful, wearing glamorous outfits but there is no soul. There are tears in her eyes but no emotions on her face. Although she has perfomed quite well, she fails to enthrall viewers in the songs.If only looking beautiful good could make a movie hit, she would have more hits to her credit than her contemporaries.

The saving grace of this movie is Abhiseik Bachan and to some extent Shabana Azmi.
Shabana Azmi potrays her character perfectly. Abhisheik brings passion into his scenes with Ash(although she looks older to him in some scenes). His dialouge delivery is perfect and very convincing.
My favourite part of this movie was the interval. I have just one message for the director of this movie, “Jo ab kiye ho Dutta, aisa na kijo. Agle baar, aisi bore movie na bana ke dijo!”