Heart will find a way...

Oh my mind, where are you going, for what are you going?
What remains unfound yet, that you seek.
Hey mind, understand what the heart says.


You keep wandering like a deer in a thick forest.
When will you find that river which will quench your thirst.
Hey mind, understand what the heart says.


In the journey of life, comes the stop of love.
The heart says this is that river.
But mind wouldn't listen.
Hey mind, understand what the heart says.


There will come a time when my mind you will say,
I told you not to listen to the heart.
But try and understand, it is better to regret ,
what one has done than to regret what one hasn't done.
Hey mind, understand what the heart says.


Oh my mind tell me, what the heart says to you.
Don't hide it from yourself, just do it!

Gift of the gab for the cab

I have been thinking about doing a MBA for quite sometime now. All brochures for MBAs would normally have the same line about how they would create a world class manager out of you. However this was something I never understood. Is it possible to make a world class manager out of someone who doesn't want to open up to people or someone who doesn't have the gift of the gab. Since long I had always doubted myself, on how effective I would be if I were to manage a team. However all my inhibitions thrashed by one experience. I am a rash driver. Believe me that's an understatement. I have banged my Alto(no pun intended) half a dozen times in past 18 months. Although the Pune roads and public have to take some part of the blame, I can't escape from the fact that I am a hopeless driver. After banging my car the last time in April, I decided that this was enough and I am no longer driving my car on a regular basis. So I started going to office by rickshaw. Manyatimes I would walk down from office. After all I loved walking and 9 kms wasn't much for me. The walk down through the army camp was lovely in the evenings, only till the rains came. The rains threw me offtrack. I had to look for other options. I decided to start a cab service from Wanawadi to Kalyani Nagar. I did find a good number of people interested for this route but just interested. It wasn't as easy as I thought. People committing and then backtracking, everyone has their own issues and ofcourse the timings had to be settled. I had to counsel each person individually to solve their problems. Also sometimes had to make the difficult decision to say "no" to people. The toughest part for me was to create a feeling of trust in people who didn't know me at all. Rather I had to make myself believe that these people will trust me. In short, I had to make full use of my gift of the gab which I felt I never had. I am human, I make mistakes in judgment!
Managing all this for 3 weeks was some task but when we finally started the van I felt I had accomplished something. My first task as a manager was done. Now I will have to see to it that this cab keeps running smoothly and we move on to a better option. A smooth transition. Doesn't this sound so familiar. Well, this experience has helped me get over my complex, so are you thinking of starting a cab!

Change will never change

There are so many pieces which are scattered around, here and there. I need to pick them up and fix it.
The moment I fix one, the other breaks. If life were a furniture, I would go and buy a new one.
But we can't get a new life, can we! Our past never seems to stop following us. Mistakes of the past keep
hounding one like hungry wolves. Well, maybe not that bad, maybe I am just exggerating it but life sucks.
Sometimes in life one feels that there is no destination. It is aimless. Just imagine sitting in a bus and not knowing where
you have to get down. The anxiety, the impatience and the fear. Thats exactly how you feel when you don't know
where your life is taking you. So do you have a destination?
This is exactly what I asked myself a few months back. I decided to introspect and decided what I wanted to do
in life. However once I did decide and got down to doing it, I am confused once again. Do I really want to do this
or is it just a big mistake. Desire stems from dissatisfaction of your present situation. If one were happy and satisfied
with what he/she had then he/she wouldn't look for more or a change. However Change is constant. Change is that law of
nature which has never changed. So before your life changes without your permission, go ahead and change it yourself.
Easier said than done. Try changing your life. Try taking a major step in life. Try doing something you alsways wanted to do
but never did because it wasn't a norm to do it. The hurdles start, your family,society,relatives,neighbours,colleagues.
Not one person will leave the chance to question you or ridicule your ideas. The ones who support you will either be your friends
or the ones who see some benefits for themselves in your step. However these hurdles won't pose a big problem if you have faith in
yourself. Yes, only if you have faith in yourself, that is not the easy part by far.Faith in God is easy. Then why is it so difficult to have faith in yourself.
Whatever the philosophy of life might be, the fact is that my life is still a mess and I am feeling too lazy to arrange it.
So let time do it for me.