Change will never change

There are so many pieces which are scattered around, here and there. I need to pick them up and fix it.
The moment I fix one, the other breaks. If life were a furniture, I would go and buy a new one.
But we can't get a new life, can we! Our past never seems to stop following us. Mistakes of the past keep
hounding one like hungry wolves. Well, maybe not that bad, maybe I am just exggerating it but life sucks.
Sometimes in life one feels that there is no destination. It is aimless. Just imagine sitting in a bus and not knowing where
you have to get down. The anxiety, the impatience and the fear. Thats exactly how you feel when you don't know
where your life is taking you. So do you have a destination?
This is exactly what I asked myself a few months back. I decided to introspect and decided what I wanted to do
in life. However once I did decide and got down to doing it, I am confused once again. Do I really want to do this
or is it just a big mistake. Desire stems from dissatisfaction of your present situation. If one were happy and satisfied
with what he/she had then he/she wouldn't look for more or a change. However Change is constant. Change is that law of
nature which has never changed. So before your life changes without your permission, go ahead and change it yourself.
Easier said than done. Try changing your life. Try taking a major step in life. Try doing something you alsways wanted to do
but never did because it wasn't a norm to do it. The hurdles start, your family,society,relatives,neighbours,colleagues.
Not one person will leave the chance to question you or ridicule your ideas. The ones who support you will either be your friends
or the ones who see some benefits for themselves in your step. However these hurdles won't pose a big problem if you have faith in
yourself. Yes, only if you have faith in yourself, that is not the easy part by far.Faith in God is easy. Then why is it so difficult to have faith in yourself.
Whatever the philosophy of life might be, the fact is that my life is still a mess and I am feeling too lazy to arrange it.
So let time do it for me.