Chronicles of a Rainy Day

Whenever it rains, it makes me forget all my pain
Through ups and downs, no matter what, I rebound.
The butterflies rest and the flowers bloom,
so beautiful is nature that my heart sings to it's tune.

The drums of thunder, violin of a droplet
Soothes my soul and makes my heart scarlet
Rabindra sangeet it is for the day,
for there is no one better than Gurudev who described the rains.

Now that my heart is joyous and sadness nowhere near
it's time to worship my stomach without any fear
The smell of potatoes call me there
where there are bhajjiyas to be to be serverd with some care

The night brought darkness and birds have hid
the lights went off as they always did
Some pole must have fallen or a tree tumbled
man can't solve nature's eccentric puzzle

Flooded are the roads and some homes too
Why has nature brought fury and not love to do
The drums sound like war cries and violins give me pain
probably it's time for rain to go back to a dry terrain.

Somewhere out there, there is someone who needs you more
He cries for water, kills himself for your disdain
please help him with your tender drops,
whenever it rains, it will cease his pain.

Intuitions

Has it ever happened to you that you feel something and it happens! Well, for me it keeps happening. It is not necessarily a good thing.If one intutes about a bad experience and it happens, you will be scaredof thinking. Alliance Francaise has organised a party today. I bought the tickets last weekend itself. Even my friend was interested in coming, so I bought tickets for both of us. We had planned to go together. However, ever since the time the plan was made, I had this feeling thatthis won't work out. He will refuse at the last moment. I was so sureabout it that I shot a mail to him this morning, asking what time he would meet me.I was right, he had some deadline to meet and he couldn't make it.The frequency of my intuitions hitting bull's eye is amazing but that doesn't mean that I cherish the quality I have. It is believed that dreams can hold the key to our future. For instance, the belief goes that if you dream that someone in your family is getting married, there willbe a death in your family. I did not believe this when I first heard it. Was I right ? Not quite. My grandfather had been going through a phase of bad health for a long time. Almost a year. Suddenly one night I dreamt that my cousin was getting married. When I wokeup, the first think that I heard was that he passed away. I was shocked. I was stunned, I couldn't say a word. I got over this shock as time passed by. However this wouldn't be the last time that my intuitionwould scare me. Late in 2003, my aunt fell sick. After a few months my aunt and her family came down to Mumbai for her treatment. I took leave for a couple of days and went to Mumbai. I didn't sense much trouble the first few days. On my last day of leave, I booked bus tickets for Pune. Before leavingI went to meet my aunt in the hospital. I don't know what struck me but I walked out of that hospital room,staright into a phone booth, called up my colleague and told her that I wouldn't be returning to workfor the next 3 days. I did not take that bus. I slept that night, a bit apprehensive. I was woken up earlymorning, around 4am. There was a call from the hospital. My aunt had passed away. Manyatimes small incidents which happen, like taking a bus or a trip or even losing a match, I perceive them. Most people wouldn't believe me when I tell them, "I knew this would happen." Can't blame them. Science does not explain intuitions. Science doesn't explain God too. We don't stop believing in Him, do we? Although scared sometimes, I choose to trust my intuitions. somehow, somewhere inside us, we know what will happen the next moment, don't we?

Secrets

There are two issues here:
Why do we need to keep secrets from others?Why can't others, especially your trusted friends keep secrets to themselves?
The former is an open question subject to change from person to person.However the latter is one whose results show amazing consistency. The consistency with which most of my friends have failed me. From the good ones to the best.When a person whom I don't know that well or I don't rely on too much spills the beans, I don't feel so bad. However, when it comes to my close friends, that really hurts. I can often not forgive them for years, call it weakness or a grudge. I do like keeping somethings restricted to a very small circle of people.
Initially I was very biased against the weaker sex. Although one of my closest and most trusted confidant is a lady, who has never failed me till date, I always generalised that women have a loose tongue.I was WRONG!!! Believe me, we are as bad as the women. When it comes to gossip, men have equal if not more achievements than women.
I may still forget the wound of betrayal if people accept their mistakes with a straight face.But there are some who will apologise and still say "I had no idea you wanted me to keep this to myself,but if I have hurt you, I am sorry" This is really iirritating, what in Hindi is called "Ek to chori uske upar seena zori". And then there are some innocent ones who say "I didn't mean to say it that way, it's just that he/she understood it that way".Wow, these people should start teaching telepathy. Did you guys get a degree in reading between the lines?
Fed up of betrayals I keep telling myself, trust no one but you. I wish I could follow what my mind says.