I have often wondered as a child, how people could be so open and brazen about their feelings and emotions. Often I have found it difficult to express my true feelings. Not only with people I don't know well but even with those that are closest to me, to my heart. It might be very hard for many of my friends to believe me but I am someone who keeps my deepest feelings to myself. I might have an expressive face but my facial emotions hide more than what they reveal. It is not that I have been brought up this way, it is just the person I am. I tend to withdraw into my shell whenever I sense a hint of vulnerability. That is not something I am terribly proud of.
It is funny that I write this on the birthday of one of my closest firends. Often I have felt I have never said somethings probably I should have said long back. Somethings which I felt were better left unsaid and untold. Maybe that is why I write this blog, to keep reminding me that there was something that I had left undone, unfinished. Perhaps I have failed to keep up with the times, perhaps I am still a soul from the eighteenth century.
In todays day and age of mass media and marketing for anything and everything being a person who is not very flamboyant of ones ownself, might not be ideal. Infact I am still suprised as to how I can emote myself seamlessly on this blog and subject my feelings to the view of all and sundry and allow a public scrutiny of my opinions. Perhaps technology can change things, people and the way we live our lives. Certainly it has changed my life, and me in more ways than one.
Yours Truly,
Abhijeet Nandy
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