Let go

I took a long break from writing my blog. Long break from blog was a result of no break available in real life. This month, a lot has been crossing my mind and also my tongue. I have been uncharacteristically blunt. Or so I think. Often I tend to convict myself too much. It has also been tough personally. It was my first Puja away from home, Bombay. Mid terms and assignments cluttered around the same week. To add to that, an event that I have known about for a long time, happened last week, causing some pain to me. That’s when I decided to search someone’s name on the net and what I ended up with was a link to non – attachment. It is said how easy it could be to relieve your pain and stress by simply letting go of the idea you feel is so near and dear to you. We often tend to have a perception of happiness in our minds and we keep trying to reach there. In the pursuit of happiness what we end up with is stress, pain and sadness. In the end, once we reach there we realize that now we need more to be happy. Let me correct myself, we want more to be happy. I never really understood the difference between needs and wants in my Marketing Management class but now I do.
So back to the spot were we thought we would be happy but now we want more. Isn’t that pain, stress and effort we put in to reach this spot seem worthless then. It does. So detach yourself from any idea that makes you feel stress. Nothing is more important in this world than peace of mind. One of the ways that I find really useful for the peace of mind is meditation. It is often hard to empty ones mind and concentrate. The secret is not to try too hard. Just let go of the idea that you need to empty your mind and you will see that you need to empty your mind and you will be startled by the results. The moment you think that my mind needs to be empty, you have given birth to a new thought. And it is this thought that brings back all worldly worries and thoughts to your mind when your mind should actually be empty.
Often I notice that the exams I try too hard for tend to go bad. However the ones I don’t try too much, let myself ease into the course material, I tend to perform quiet well. It is funny that in my first course, without any knowledge of what an A+ means for the GPA, I got one. Thereafter I could never get one. Maybe I had attached myself so hard to the idea of an A+ that I just tended to get too impatient.
It is ironic and funny that today I am trying to detach myself from someone using the spiritual ideas of non-attachment, human spirit and ultimate happiness, when these very ideas were the ones that brought us close. Close to whom? Ummm…. I think I have detached too far to remember now!