Peace, ambition and happiness

Bollywood has always inspired me to break unbroken boundaries and explore what was previously unthinkable. This might come as a surprise to someone who thinks that Bollywood is only a name given to a kind of cinema that portrays a make believe world, not representing reality. Nothing can be further from the truth. Actually, it depends on your ability to decode scenes and interpret suttle actions and gestures of characters into something more meaningful. Understanding what motivates some people to do what they do. Trust me, I am still speaking about Bollywood.

So what does this article have to do with my title? Yesterday I saw Luck By Chance (LBC). The movie raised quite a few vital points. Is there a difference in being content and happy? My interpretation was always that if you have no aspirations, you are content and you will be happy. I have discussed about this in few of my earlier articles written in 2006. However, LBC goes a step further and says that being content is in your hands. You choose in life that the life you are living, would you call that a success or failure. If you believe in what you do, make yourself believe that you are a success when compared to others who have been a part of your past, then you choose to be successful and thus happy. For instance, if you are a married woman and a working as a French teacher at age 28, the choice is yours, to decide if you are successful or not. You could convince yourself that you are a failure in life because you have a childhood friend who works as an IT manager and earns much more than you do. Or you could be successful by interpreting your life as that of being successful in your family life (good marriage) and doing a job you love to do. Will that IT manager be able to say the same? Maybe not, after all who dreams of becoming an IT manager as a kid. What do you mean by success, becomes terribly important. Is money the only parameter? Or is love for your family and work a more important factor? The choice is yours to make. You choose success in life, not your destiny.

Achievement is only a state of mind, you can achieve it.

Dreams, to be achieved

I dedicate this song to myself!

Is pagle ko kaun bataye
dhoond raha hai jo tu jag mein
koi jo paaye
man mein hi paaye

Sapno se bhare naina To neend hai na chaina
Sapno se bhare naina To neend hai na chaina

Aise dagar koi agar jo apnaaye
har raah ke wo ant pe raste hi paaye

Dhoop ka rasta jo pair jalaaye
Mod to aaye chaaanv na aaye
Raahi jo chalta hai chalta hi jaaye
koi nahi hai jo kahi use samjhaaye

Sapno se bhare naina To neend hai na chaina
Sapno se bhare naina To neend hai na chaina

Naina re naina re
Naina re naina re

Door se hi sagar jise har koi maane
Paani hai wo ya ret hai ye kaun jaane
Jaise ke din se rain alag hai
Sukh hai alag hai aur chain alag hai
Par ye jo dekhe wo nain alag hai
Chain to apna sukh hai paraaye

Sapno se bhare naina To neend hai na chaina
Sapno se bhare naina To neend hai na chaina

Sapno se bhare naina To neend hai na chaina
Sapno se bhare naina To neend hai na chaina

Sapno se bhare naina To neend hai na chaina
Sapno se bhare naina To neend hai na chaina

Sapno se bhare naina To neend hai na chaina
Sapno se bhare naina To neend hai na chaina

Patient, yet

If you truly know even one bone of me, you would agree that patience is not my virtue. Impulsive, intuitive and action prone, those are all the words that truly describe me. I have rarely been able to play the waiting game. I still remember how I was asked by my team mate at Nihilent to be patient enough to complete two years before I quit the politically charged workplace. I was the first to move on for better opportunities. Not the last though, the tide had just turned. I did not wait for long to pursue an MBA. Took up the first opportunity available. I never regret being impatient, it always paid off. However, this time round I have shown unusual patience to wait for the right opportunity. I wonder why! Maybe Canada has changed me in many ways, for good. However, patience should never act as a cover for lack of courage. Courage, to take the right step. I am sure my roots will always guard me against that vice.

This week I have also gone through another strange phase. I have been remembering one of the greatest leaders India has ever had.

Indira Gandhi

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Today, we seem to lack the courage and shrewdness she epitomizes, to change the course of destiny of millions of people. Things she did, would change India, her enemies and the world forever. Just imagine, how the world would be today if we had two epicentres of terror on both sides of India. Good heavens, she was not patient enough with the Pakistani army and its atrocities in East Pakistan.

Strange Intutions

Since last two weeks I have been having this insane premonition of a big earthquake. It feels as if there will be a huge natural calamity soon. I don't know the exact place but it feels like a place near Pindi in Pakistan. Its strange I don't why but it just feels as if I am waiting for the big one!

Passion misplaced

Have you ever waited with baited breath for a phone call or an email, from someone special, who was a complete stranger till sometime back? That usually signals start of a new relationship. You feel excited, nervous and elated about future prospects. Until ofcourse you realize that call or email is not coming anytime soon!

It wouldn't usually sting you that bad if you are also looking for a way out or get the feeling pretty early on that the other person isn't really looking for anything serious. Better even if you know the person isn't really interested in you. Atleast there are no expectations. However, what happened to me a few days back was just baffling. I am still trying to figure out if I got dumped and imagining the reasons for it. I knew things wouldn't work out before fixing up the date. However, decided to take the chance. I tried hard to remain disengaged but got drawn in by an apparent interest on the other side. A few intimate moments and deep secrets shared meant that I had dropped my initial inhibitions. Little did I know that the result would be this. Why would one want to share their deepest feelings and fears, when there is no genuine intent to get close? Isn't it really painful when you are initially not interested, then get drawn in due to the other person's persuasion and then eventually get dumped.

I fail to understand why someone would take the effort to make something beautiful and then just break it in a moment. Still wondering, was twenty six hours of pleasure worth days of distress. At least it makes for interesting reading.